here are a few words to summarize what this year was like for me:

--->Confusing: It was utter confusion trying to find where my classes were in the depths of such a large highschool. Also, I was lost in many of my classes as I once again over-booked my brain capacity. I was confused over relationships this year, and both left me rethinking my own heart. Though I was confused, this leads me to believe that my year was also full of....

--->Experience(s): In the begining of the year, I met many new faces and still was close with old one's as well. There were so many memories made this year that I can't even begin to describe... beauty, strength, sadness, doubt, pain, confusion, death, life, breathing-freely, suffocating, loss, gain, friends, enimies, ex-boyfriends, new friends, old friends, aquaintances, ohh~ so many things...

All in all this year was interesting. It was full of polar opposites much of which was due to my changes and such from school to school, friend to enemy, having a boyfriend to ex.

Let's begin with the first few months...

In September, I broke things off with AJ because I didn't feel we were making a connection anymore. Soon after this, I began seeing Wayne. During this time, I was very very happy. It was as if this was going to be the best time of my life... And it was. It was perfect in many ways. He and I rarely fought and we were almost the picture-esque couple. Many people envied what we had.

Then, there was the group. Oh god. This was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. 6 friends, 3 couples...all having fun together during the winter months. We went bowling and took pictures and did so many things together it was nothing short of splendid. I suppose that I would like for that time to return, but the purpose of a memory is a recollection of what happened before. It wouldn't be as special if this were to have lasted forever.

In early February, things became rough for Wayne and I. We got in a fight about something rediculous and he broke up with me. We didn't even talk things over. It was really hard on me, but it taught me to be stronger... There's nothing I regret about what happened. That's just how things go sometimes.

After this, Wayne began seeing my friend Andrea. I was, I'll admit, a little bitter at first when I heard of this. I couldn't believe that they were together, for one, and so soon after the 5 months I spent with Wayne. I learned that the way I think (love is not a light switch to be turned on and off instantaniously) was not always the right thing. Wayne obviously did not feel that love was something he could hold onto for a while. As much as I disagree, I understand that's how he thinks. Rather fickle, but nothing truly wrong about it. At length, they broke up. I left Olympic HS shortly after things became uncomfortable, but it was not that reason I left. I left because I moved into the CK district at last.

My return to CK was rather lonely at first. I felt like noone would ever love me again the same that Wayne did. It was a horrible existance and I began to hate and doubt my self and self worth. Until... I saw that true friends are all that I need. My friends were always there for me when things got tough and the tears came... I was not lonely anymore and life seemed to have come to a wonderful point. I became friends with many new people during this time, and also became closer to Nadine, Kai, Whitney and Zak. I am so happy to know these people, really.

Towards the end of the year, I was really stressed about grades. WASL had set me back a bit and I was very behind. I had to work hard to get my grades up, and yet I am still ashamed of them. Next year I hope to bring them up, but I want to burn the report card this year. I brought up my Biology grade just in time, but I can't say the same for Alg II. No worries though, I am going to fix that this year.

I went on a few field trips in June. One resulted in a horribly false rumor started by a friend and the other was amazingly amazing. Howl's Moving Castle is now my all-time favorite movie!!!

well~ finally!

The last day of school was oddly empty... there was no closure to such an inspirational and impactful year. I suppose that's life.

I hope your year was wonderful too. Good night.